In just a couple of weeks, I will complete a long time goal of mine. I will graduate from college with a Bachelors Degree. At 54, it is fairly uncommon to see other students my age at the university that I attend. So many people I know did not attend college for various reasons and I am happy if they are complete without this achievement. I had not given it too much thought after starting my business over 16 years ago but once all five of my children had attended and graduated from college, I had to rethink my life’s goal. I’ve mentioned this before but with the commencement date approaching, I am growing nervous of what lies ahead.
My life is so different than I had planned it to be at this age. I am taking care of my grandson and work at my business but I have not expanded much beyond that because of the time constrictions with school and work. Now that the calendar will be wide open, what should I do? I have focused so much on graduating (possibly cum laude) that I haven’t given much thought past that day. My professors certainly have done their best at preparing us for life after college so to speak, but mostly they were speaking to my much younger classmates who have their whole lives in front of them. I’m on the downhill road at this point and I don’t mean that in a negative way. I’m just being a realist. I would love to move to the mountains, keep working at my business and travel a bit but that is not happening in the near future due to other responsibilities. I wonder sometimes if its to late to have such wishes but without wishes and dreams, where would we be?
Now that the end, as in college, is so near, I’ll have to switch gears once again and find my place in this world. I hope I can find it soon!